Though I've lost my dog who was like my first child. I've been faced with many new conflicts in life almost immediate. I don't want to skirt away and hide in tears and grief. I know this was barely a hiatus but I don't want to give up. I don't think she would want me to either. She was always there for me emotionally pushing me through hard times. So I'm going to respect her by pushing through these hard times again.

I'm returning to working on my job search, I'll be returning to making content here, and I'll be drawing again on Art Station and Twitter.  I don't want to stand idle crying. I was working so hard on things so I could move out and get a nicer place for her to stay, so I'm going to continue doing that. I may not have her by my side, but she's in my heart. I want to make a better life so I can one day say I did it and finally accomplished the goal I had for her. 

I wont give up.  I hope if you who are reading this, if you are going through a difficult time too, you can do the same.  Be strong and learn to forgive yourself.