i'm someone who has a weird fetishes as a passionate things on my time when writing, i tend to hide it from my family and friends outside and keep it as a personal things on the internet, i look up stuff on pixiv almost daily to take a look at R-18 content with unconventional fetishes not for everyone.
i'm still learning how to draw, i'll just start with something simple and slow first, and then when i felt like if i wanted to draw something more weirder like i'm now, i want to be able to draw and channelling my inner degeneracy into it, but i'll have to grind by learning the anatomy and figure drawing first and things can go "smoothly" :-)
-sykalol