This was a very odd read where I think I don't know what the true ending represents, but I kept feeling I was on this voyage of going from understanding to not understanding. And this theme of going back and forth between many different themes persisted where i thought this novel was brilliant to stupid to brilliant again, captivating to boring to captivating again, it's just such an ebb and flow of feelings that I dont think I can fully explore. I think the main takeaways happened on the small moments of the journey, so I'll hold onto those when I'm lost to the whole. If this was the intended purpose, very good job for leaving me feeling confused and profound.