Yeah it's not there. This is a really cool game btw, I love that you combined first-person and third-person perspectives as well as having a cool inventory and different enemies to take down or avoid.
The slow walking speed can get pretty annoying after a while so I just ended up holding down shift to run all the time. Another bug I occasionally encountered was my character would get stuck on geometry or clip out of the screen and I'd have to restart. Also, after loading a saved game inventory items would oddly disappear-- like the battery or the floppy disk, and they couldn't be recovered or found again.
But despite these issues I found myself wanting to play the game again and again because, as I mentioned above, I'm intrigued by the gameplay and the world you've created.