Look, I really understand what you mean, but it just makes my brain and body tingle in a bad way. Again, simply put, I'm way too much of a mess to be able to subconciously allow myself to play it :/
I know how much I will immerse, and immersing into a masc male is like setting myself to burn on a stake. Still, thanks for the compliment! I'm really trying to not come off as an attention seeking ass or something.