Now i miss her, she is still whit me, but i can only see her some times and this ship is bery hard to control. I´m a bad driver, i can crash if the way is too much for me, i can lose her if i cant continue and is so hard to continue, i can lose all. I don´t want to crash, i don´t want to lose, but is so dark out there and i can´t see the future, i´m afraid to look and realise she is not there anymore.
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