I'm AroAce, so I feel something similar, I'd hate to be in a relationship, it makes me uncomfortable, but see other people enjoying romantic and sexual actions makes me always wonder "Why I'm not like them?" I already accept myself and my sexuality, and also love to see wholesome love, but I always ended troughing "Man, I'm such a odd guy" it's strange, and doubt that someone who ain't in the spectrum of AroAce would understand, jeez, I don't even understand myself sometimes xd
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I totally get you! Tho, i also have this weird thing that i find faking romantic is kind of fun! Like.. calling oter person that sweet shit lovers call each other, spend valentines day together and go on dates! I especially love dates! I may have no idea how dates are diferent from just hanging out, but i love calling it that because its... groovy! You know what i meen? I think a lot of people would understand.