SAME! Having my Mordred feel like a tool for revenge but reveling in their purpose before having their view shattered when they make (gasp) more friends as an adult
Lmao that's exactly what my Mordred did!!
Meanwhile playing the game a solely vengeful Mordred breaks my heart. I feel so awful for being mean to Arthur, but at the same time I morbidly love the way that Morgana feeding a vengeful Mordred's hate ironically mirrors how Morgana claims that Merlin is manipulating and deceiving Arthur.
God it's so well-written, I love it.