Hey, I'm not the creator, but I just wanted to say that you are lovable and worthy of love and I hope you can find and surround yourself with people who do love you, support you and make you feel happy the way you deserve! I know we don't know eachother, but I think you sound like a sensitive, thoughtful and kind person and I think those qualities are miles more important than a lot of others, and definitely something I cherish a lot in friends, as do many others!
I'm always happy to talk when you need somebody to talk to, and I can tell you are going through a difficult time, but you are loved! Even Cove said it <3