That is very interesting Moonbird.
Imagine if both May and the “Goth GF” were both suicidal in the same exact way and as soon as you finished spending that day with May the “Goth GF”‘s last message on your laptop was “Too late, it’s not your fault.”
It would become impossible (much like it is in real life) to help everyone simultaneously and you would still be villainized for playing favorites and helping one person over the other (or choosing the closest person).
I hope the actual take away is – dedicate all of your time to improving your own (and your loved ones) mental health and do your best to not commit suicide as it will only bring down the people who do care.