Hello my friend, I know life can be quite challenging, but please don't push your family away if you don't mind. Family is there for you, they are your closest links and bonds, and your mother is the most loving person to you. Things can be tough, but I guarantee if you have a good relationship with your mother and the rest of your family, this will be better than being in a negative or "distant" relationship with them. I hope you have a nice day!