Mate, you know you don't have to be sorry, we can all be patient and even the people who are like "Seriously, no update!?" Honestly, fuck them, you're suffering and I don't know how that feels, but Kindey Stones, holy fuck. I'm sorry for the way this is going, but I am hoping/praying you're ok, no need to rush or hurt yourself to do anything for us, you're all good, get better and stay safe.