i really appreciate you taking the time to clarify your previous comment, i definitely read it in a negative way (perhaps even more than you had intended). i now understand what you mean a lot more, thank you for this!
totally fair to feel that the game wasn't for you! it's a bit out there and admittedly deliberately written to be poetic and somewhat ambiguous.
i have a lot to learn still...
thank you mint, and i do wish you all the best also.