I'm having a really difficult time processing the emotions this game has inspired in me. Bit of background, I am part of/have lived my whole life in a religion that prohibits being gay, or at least acting on it. I'm gay and in the closet. Not a great combo.
I never foresaw myself binge-playijg through this whole game over the course of 2-3 days, but it connected with me on a spiritual level. I have always been told and have thus told myself that people like me can't have love, that I need to live alone my whole life to be good with god. Adastra is my first experience ever truly tasting what it might be like to have somebody to love, somebody who loves me in return. Going through this story allowed me to pretend for a short moment that I was allowed to feel that happiness, that I was free to move forward with a relationship with another man and possibly find love and lifelong companionship there. My mind is still blown by the huge shift in perspective this has affected in me.
The feelings of bittersweet departure at the end of the game are still raw in my heart. What's left in the void Amicus leaves is a whole soup of emotions and realizations. For my first time in my life, I can almost see myself finding love someday irl now, it feels like a potential future for me, and that excites me to no end! Though it may come at the risk of denying my religion and therefore all that I've grown to believe, as well as all of the family and friend relationships I may lose if I leave that behind for the sake of hopefully finding love somewhere out there.
I'm at a bit ofn at a loss at the moment, no idea how to truly move forward yet. But I must say to all those that contributed to creating this story, thank you. You've given this man hope that, despite the difficulties life presents, I may be able to find loving companionship someday so I don't have to spend this life alone. You've done a great thing here, I hope you all know that :)