Mourning with you & praying for you. Give your grief the time it needs---but remember, this is a big loss, but not *the end.*
God be with you. (might read Job----imagine loosing *10* kids like he did!)
Just like in "Infinite Stars" your life isn't over, more is still waiting to be written. (crying for you as I write this!)
Just an idea ----but maybe somehow you can use this in the story? Life would be much less interesting if nothing bad ever happened... (take some time, heal 1st if you need to.)
Many have used bad things in their lives, to do *GOOD* things! Music, poems, stories, etc...
Bad to ignore grief, pain---but it *CAN* be channeled, used.