also ive sobbed my throat raw and my eyes dry and i cried so hard i threw up and im nowhere near done. i dont know how remus can not hate us in his ending. i hope the door is still in the castle, maybe we can still get out together, in time, maybe when the end draws nearer. turns out "too much escapism is bad" as a motif doesnt work when the reader is in need of not just escapism, but escape entirely