this is me rightnow. But i don't have the courage to end it. I alway think about my parent when i'm about to jump but also think about death when i'm alone. life is cruel for me. I hate myself for being weak.
Don’t think you’re weak, I’m sure you’re not. Whatever situation you’ve gone through or are currently facing is enough of a reason to justify that you are strong that you’ve made it this far. I think that, right now, you’re stronger than ever, because you’re fighting against whatever forces may be opposite to you. You may be calling yourself weak because of what you’re currently going through, but as someone who has also gone through tough times where I’ve been in a position like yours, the fight is worth it. Life changes, things change, you’ll change. Give it some time and reach for help when you’re in need of it, and I wish you the best of luck in overcoming these challenges you’re facing.