Lip you have to stop being selfish and understand that no one here is hostile towards you.
You say that people here insult and fool you but the only person who's harming you is yourself.
Bad moments happen and will always happen no matter what, that's how life is. You are strong for suffering for so long and still being able to stand still. Give yourself some pride and don't let some futile discussion in the internet change the course of your life. You are strong, you just haven't realized it yet, just give yourself a chance.