Thanks for all your openness. As a coach to many developers, it feels like you are on the right track. Getting things out early. Getting feedback. Seeing things in real life will help you to touch base with your audience and give new insights and energy. You might want to take a step in between and invite for a patreon only early demo or twitch session, even if you don't want to make an official release. There is middle ground between staying hidden away and releasing straight out of the door that might help you elivate some of your tension :)