TLDR for newcomers : "I'm not the problem, you all are !!! Also, f*** all of you and I hate 90% of furries lmao"
Bro, you need to seek a psychiatrist, since you are clearly not well mentally. Leave this space, and try seeking some form of help before you come back. I don't even know you, nor do I care to, but reading all your past logs, you seem unhinged