Those screenshots screams "videogame in development", don't they? Only the sprites are final. The text box, the colors, the font, the main menu and things like that are still pending. Wow, saying it like that sounds like a lot, well yes it is a lot. Not to mention the lack of music and few sound effects.
Really, if developing in RPG Maker is already difficult for me, using an engine that requires programming would finish me. It's partly because I'm making a visual novel, which is different from a Top-Down, but even if it's not impossible, it's exhausting. But it's a matter of planning my work time better and getting used to it, so it won't be so difficult little by little.
I have had periods of reflection on many things, mainly my situation and all that entails what I am doing and how I am. It is hard and overwhelming, but part of being adults is knowing how to balance things to face situations like this in the best possible way, so I will definitely continue, and I will complete this project, and many others. Actually my outburst was going to be much more long-winded but since I already did it mentally I don't think it's necessary.