hi nik,
thank you very much for your words, i am humbled to hear that my writing inspired you!
about 46 — this was a tool a friend gave me, which was given to them by their therapist. i do this ritually, fairly often, even if i'm only vaguely feeling thoughts of doom creep in. it really really helps me. i hope it can help other people.
a lot of this text is a tool to help me get through a hard place. honestly i need to read this now more than i did when i wrote it. so it goes.
thank you for leaving this comment, and happy pride.
yours in solidarity,
sasha