Thank you for the thoughtful comment and for sharing your fears here. Loss is terrifying. It’s so easy to get so caught up in mourning the future that it becomes much harder to appreciate the present, thus losing even more time. It’s ironic and it’s a hard cycle to break.
As you can probably tell by this story, I’m the opposite; what worries me is how quickly I’ve learned to move on from grief, but that also puts me in a similar cycle of my own. I don’t have any words of wisdom or solutions, but I do know that loving and being loved is a beautiful sort of pain, and at the end of the day, one single memory goes a long, long way.