Sad you let the hate get you and that you scraped the first version that was with "realistic but stylized" and first person ... rn this is completly different game and it's a shame i wish you would have stick to the old one.
Now i hope you can really push this one alot to the point one day you could start working back on the first project while giving little update to this one too but swtiching focus between the two once each one are truly "complete" that would eb awesome but it's a long road even more for someone who work alone so Good luck and stay strong never give up ! And try to seek helps there is no shame in it only positives !