How To never stop suicide.

"repeat to yourself that they're not really gone time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie is the most effective way to deal with things you have no control over

keep listening to the mixtapes they made you overanalyse every single word you hear "was this a sign that things were going wrong" no no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them

stay up every single night staring at your phone either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons, these constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love

avoid your friends for weeks even though
they're the only sense of consistency you have
left in your life, if they really wanted
to see you they'd come, but they won't so who cares?

allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you, don't fight it become a secondary character in your own motion picture

but most importantly drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum, learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach, you're drinking bottled love now.

you don't need other people to drive away your loneliness,  you just needed to find a way to talk to it.

so why try? So I should Just let go."