I agree that so much, but I also think its the carnal desire to be in control. I hate that I enjoyed the game and wanted to 100 percent that, so my need for completion and my need to have control.
Bro we all have dirty thoughts, I myself have the darkside that makes me shame but attracts me, thats why I picked this game. However thoughts and actions are definitely different, what we are if we can't control ourselves from hurting others, that makes us animal.