Your reply really filled my heard with joy. I can't believe you took the time to respond and give advice, it really means a lot :D
I have been through therapy but most of my therapists told me that there is nothing much they can do for me since I am self-aware of what I have and why I act the way I do haha.
But hey, I held on for 13 years, I'm 24 now and I'm doing my best to feel better even though everything has a bitter taste. I will, one day, be okay and I do my best to find happiness all around me and spread love and positivity as much as I can because I don't want others to feel the way I do or at least I try to help those who feel sad :)