Hi! Thank you for playing.
I went to a school that was sometimes called "suicide school" due to two students who took their lives somewhere in early 2000s. Everyone I knew there coped with their declining mental health by joking about death and related topics, and so did I. We just do what we have to do to cope sometimes, and I understand that.
I'd rather avoid giving any advice; I'm just some guy on the internet, not a mental health professional, and everyone is different. What I know is that going on is hard, but it does get better eventually. You'll finish your games, I believe in it.