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Happy new year to you as well! Do whatever you need to do in order to get your head in a good spot. If it is game design, awesome. If not, prioritize your health first and foremost. 

You can download and install it, but I'm not clear on what features are unlocked at what tiers so you might just have to buy the Creator tier: 

https://www.patreon.com/posts/downloading-and-32794384

Would be more than willing to test or give feedback on mechanics. Really liked your initial take and am always intrigued on what mechanics designers think of.

If you are doing VAM, you might look into just making interactive scenes. Something like _bury's work would be impressive: https://hub.virtamate.com/resources/succubus-trainer-v2.49746/