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yayayayyayayayya hi guys I got PINK phone!!!!!!

PINK! PHONE!

all my prroblems are FIXED and alsk HE ASKED ME OUT!!!

YAYYYYYYY

4/8\25!!!

i've literally liked him since last year actually omgggggg

and hes goin to prom w meeeeee 

im getting my dress thurdayy

HE FINALLY ASKEF ME OUTTTTFT (my mom has been manifesting HARD since before valentines day)

almost attempted TWICE last week

i literally dont wanna be here anymore

probably should not have said that

these kids keep calling me fat and im not even i literally have a eating disorder what????

so anyways i wanna js not

skibidiahh

we kissed

3 times

but then I told him I cant kiss him no more unless we date but I already knew he needed time and told him why I cant and he was super understanding I love him

i was hanging out w the boy today

and I've been wearing shorts

right

i looked at my legs

you can see the scar from when I cut my ex-gfs initial into my thigh and put a heart around it

Anyways-

New crush, he's sweet and keeps flirting back. He knows I selfharm, he doesnt like that I do it or neccesaeily understand but 🤷‍♀️

A little bit over a month clean, and I've started struggling with urges of selfharm recently.

Its hard, to go to school and function normally and have this stupid little voice whispering things.

Bad things.

Its hard, when those bad things start to really hurt and cut deep, and all I want is for them to physically cut deep.

zeeeero days clean 😋😋

hi sillies!!!

happy one year anniversary in kitty heaven to my best friend Milo!!! I miss you sweet boy, i miss your smell,and the softness of your fur, i miss brushing you and giving you kitty yogurt.

i miss feeding you under the table and i miss you giving me kisses. i miss your rumbly old man purr, i miss you giving me new "hairstyles". 

i miss you so much and didn't think it hurt anymore, but it does.

we miss you.

i hope you found a real girlfriend in kitty heaven, because let me tell you that skunk was not it.

i hope you found more kitty friends, cuz Jazzy kept looking for you. Did you say goodbye to her?

Do you watch me? Us?

I know you do. I feel you with me sometimes.

Keep bugging grandma, i know she misses you even if she won't admit it.

i hope you forgive me for losing my necklace, and for sobbing like a baby.

Pay Auntie Kristen a visit, I know she misses you so much.

I miss you more.

If we had tuna I'd eat it like I did when you died, and on your birthday. I'm sad we don't.

I love you so fluffing much, tell Fruitloops I say hi if you can. I miss her too. And Grammy Hammy. And Omi. Please.

-Your bestest friend ever.

anyways gonna ask my mom to take me to walmart sometime this week to get a binder

and 

my dad's gf put a bible pamphlet in my room knowing im a satanist athiest

also, the urge to cut is insane.

uhm so

hi. *sings toxic gossip train/j*

my whole life is a wreck rn

my dad didnt do jack shit for my bday

my bus/ car ride sched as of right now makes it so I can literally only see my gf 4/5 days

but ocassionally it's 3/5 for her meetings

and then once my club starts it'll always be 3/5, then get lowered to 2/5 for her occasional meetings.

its whatever ig 

I have a solo.to for my therian acc (and all related) if anyone wants to see.                        click here 👇                           start of link https://solo.to/clov3rxx end of link

also I js found out I have NO classes w my friends so thats great

guys I didnt jump him

im gonna jump his ass when hes hanging out w his friends at the park on Sunday

im so silly

I got cheated on lmaoo

I started journaling, so this will be used less lmaoo

My boyfriend snuck out of his window to walk 10 minutes (same neighborhood) to come see me.

is somebody gonna match my freak (sitting on call w my boyfriend in silence aside from the occasional conversation) (I prefer texting)

almost 24 hrs clean 💕💕

prolly gonna ruin it later bc I started thinking about growing old and dying (Suicide isnt scary, murder isnt scary, rape isnt scary, heart attacks arent scary, strokes arent scary, everything else is {including natural death})

(please remember that those are my opinions)

i broke up with my girlfriend, I just dont love her like that anymore, but I still love her.

her friend was a total asshole. like, I know shes hurting, im hurting too

zero days clean lmaoo

Im so bored. I think of life like a game, and it becomes boring when I've been stuck on the same part of this level for the past few days.

Okay, yeah getting a bf was a change

but it doesnt help when I cant see him.

we go to the waterpark tmrw but idek if I want too.

she got it back cuz she was scared I was gonna commit suicide and told her mom

so her mom knows im suicidal 😻

welp

my bsf got her phone taken forever

gonna cut mysef again prolly 💕

he said I was super pretty 💕💕😭😭

he keeps praising my thighs dude and im super insecure abt em so its making me hehe🤭🤭🤭

we're dating now 🤭🤭

DUDE SOMEHOW IN 44 MINUTES I MANAGED TO GET IN A FUCKING SITUATIONSHIP

chat its gonna take a few days but looking good so far >:3 

(when I finish it I'll show a pic its gery autism)

trynna do stick n poke but my pookie fell asleep :(

I cleaned my whole room (like a deep clean) for it too.