No, I get it now. The not carefree thing. It made me stop and take a break, after binge playing S1. S2 is a whole other level.
I also understand now why S1 ends how it ends. It makes sense for me, my first thought then was "where did I go wrong?", now I get it that mc also has to ask this themselves.
Thank you for that entertaining rollercoaster (although it's more like a slide right now).