hey, thank you for such a long and thoughtful comment. i do feel like my venn's diagram of transition experience with trans men is almost a circle, hehe. i feel the most support and same experience in support groups of transitioning men
it's a really difficult topic to think of, and its painful to think of how society and the experience of transition changing throughout generations can cause such a painful relationship and dissassociativieness with our own bodies. i try to be kinder, and i try to find myself in my body thats not affected by cis people, but by love from other trans people ... its made dysphoria easier, and also more difficult at times. but it feels like a kindness to try not to think of transition and your gender being dependant on that one thing on your body, it is atleast kinder and easier going towards surgeries when treating one self with kindness
im rambling! eitherway i wish you good things and health and support in your journey my trans sibling, it is rarely not a tough one but it is much easier to go forward with people with the same experience and feeling paving the way