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Just finished the game and I need to leave a review about my thoughts because the writing is so sooooo good. I didn't think the final where we leave IT would make me emotional but it was heartbreaking; despite all the suffering IT put us through I felt bad for abandoning it, it wasn't until the protagonist describes how it was the following weeks after leaving IT that I found myself on the verge of tears. I have never been into a romantic relationship but maybe I did experience something similar to a break up because when I read how MC would sometimes think about it, blame themselves, miss it and go back to the alley crying I had a lump in my throat.
I loved some of the alternative endings, especially the ones where IT ends up having a living doll kitten to take care of and when MC lets IT fed upon an unlucky stranger and both begin a new life together, letting IT eat at its heart content. I have so many questions though:
Which names would the doll kitten and the one eye kittens have if they had played more relevant roles in the story?
+ Does IT hate dogs simply because it has the form of a cat or did something happen to feed this hatred?
+ Can other animals aside from rats and cats take nightmare-ish forms (leaving the fact that all those scenarios were made up in our head)?
+ How would life be if we had kept IT and it lived with us (death and suffering never ending loop aside)?
+ IS the green-hazel eye kitten a parallel to IT (how it could have been - their relationship or IT itself- if the devilish cat wasn't toxic)?
+ Did MC adopted a cat similar to IT as way to cope or is their similar appearance merely coincidental? Even if it's a coincidence I can't help but imagine MC will sometimes look at the kitten and be reminded of IT
I know it portrays a toxic/abusive relationship and it does a great job at making it realistic because - while we know it enjoys making us suffer - it is true IT cares for us in a twisted way; both feeding our craving of not being left completely alone while belitting ourselves so we don't get enough confidence that we can and deserve better and ultimately abandon it. His (can we refer to IT as he/him besides using it/its?) power relies on having someone, so the fact his roars and threats turn out to crying meows could be both a manipulating tactic to make MC feel pity and join its side again and/or real sadness and deseperation to keep the human who did its existence entertaining.
Still, I can't help but love this diabolical cute, selfish, gaslighting, jealous, possessive and cruel kitty. Now that I have ended the game I feel that emptyness one has when they finish a really good series/book and I miss having IT if that makes sense? I wish there was more content about this evil baby out there or the story was longer but I am glad with what the game offers.
Anyway, thank you for this wonderful game that may become something I come back to play every once in a while. I'll cope with the hole IT has left in my heart by drawing my kitty alongside other yandere characters I like (hopefully my eldritch kitten will learn to share its human,,,probably not >.<)