ok so now I finished it, with my lover and I can safely say, that I'm in a similar situation with the main character and amicus. My lover is in another country then me and we love each other dearly. I even bought us both rings for when we meet.
I haven't finish this yet, I only play it with my lover and thanks to Adastra, I started calling my lover Amicus. I wont lie, I cried. I would have never thought that i would love this so much. Thank you