I feel like, something most people who have been some kind of trauma have felt the same in an specific part of this game.
The feeling of emptyness and also, "How can the world go on, how can the world keep spinning after I have experienced this"
I find myself thinking this too often since I live near my abuser and see him on the streets "How can he live knowing what he did? How can he look at me and not feel ashamed? how is he able to live a happy life without trouble when I still can't forget the fear I felt when it ended, a fear I still can't stop feeling anytime I think about it, why am I the only one who has to suffer for HIS actions?"
yet often the answer is... this world its putrid, in a extreme state of decomposition. And the only thing that can help us it our loved ones helping us to distract us from this fact, and try to live like nothing. To be distracted from the bad thoughts and keep pushing.
And for all my victims here, I see you. And I'm sorry. You all deserved better, no one deserved what they went thru, no matter what they say, nothing justificates what you had to go thru. No one deserves it.
I'm open for venting and hearing anyone, just feel free to text me anywhere.
