Apologies for the rambling-!
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I saw this in my feed with a five out of five and a note of crying. I decided out of curiosity to play it. I dealt with animal loss, but never first hand as we lost a dwarf hamster [which escaped it's cage] and a ferret which I thankfully did not have to see. Which honestly I feel grateful as it happened during middle school.
The game itself hit hard, quick and fast with the purring really driving it home. We had a cat who was the second pet the first being our beloved dog. She was young still in the teen phase and told she had bowel issues. The times when those issues arose we gave her medicine. She didn't enjoy it, but it was to help her and god hearing the purrs really drove home how much I still miss her. Hugging her and having her weight against me. Thinking on the last month when she couldn't use the litterbox anymore and having to put a blanket down to hug her.
It was hard to accept she had cancer, it was harder to accept that the best thing to do was to let go even if we could push for one more year with medication. I fed her all the treats she could ever dream of yet it'd never be enough. And when the end came she went out so swiftly the vet said she was just that weak. I wailed so loudly in that small little room with my brother beside me. We got her cremated as I could not stand the thought of her body in the ground.
When the day came to pick her up, it was heartwrenching. It hurt more that the pawprints we asked for did not look right or done correctly...but just seeing her ashes was just a punch to the gut. We held a small funeral for her, and wrapped her in the blanket she laid in most before burying her with all her toys in our backyard. Flowers and greenery growing over her alongside a little pet memorial stone I bought for her during work one day as I felt that she deserved it.
I think the funniest thing is I don't believe religion a whole lot, yet not to long after she passed I had a dream. I woke up went to our living room and there upon the couch, which my mother rid both of after her passing, she laid there. My dear Mabel, a comforter draped across and her ontop of it. How I cried as I felt this was her way of saying that she was alright, that she was better now.
Even with this loss after a few months I wanted a cat again, just the warmth and to be able to easily lift up a small body was what I longed for. On my birthday my mother surprised me by allowing me to adopt two kittens, a brother and sister. And oh were they a surprise not just because they were small, but because of all the things you'd see in the videos that'd they do. Jumping high for a toy, crying to be let into my room, snuggling under the sheets with me and just simply running to my bedroom door. Foreign things but by the stars above I love them so.
This game brought back a wave of emotions, and by the morning I will hug them both so tightly. Though I'm scared for the day when we might have to say goodbye to my dog. She is an old sausage and she brought me the courage to walk outside by myself when I was younger. But right now I am thankful she's still here.
