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hi gatobob!! im, uh not sure if this is the right place to write something like this, but there isnt much other choices so.,, ill understand if u ignore this hsjsk,, but i just wanted to share the huge appreciation i have for all of your work and the fact u didn’t give up even after everything you’ve went through. it’s been really hard for me lately because i trusted people i shouldn’t have and ended up losing everyone and everything i cared about. it got to me so terribly i tried to take my life from the constant panic attacks i would have. i had nobody, so i tried to find something that could bring joy in my life again yet failed multiple times. i really convinced myself there will never be anything that’d make me feel happy again and that it all was pointless. i stumbled across your game just a few months ago when i was scrolling through tik tok and after playing both parts of btd and tpof i got so immersed into the plot and characters that i swear i felt alive again. i got especially attracted to ren if being honest haha,,, for some reason i even saw myself in him because of the fact that he loved someone who never really loved him at all and only abused him. i mean hshajakj i know that he isn’t such an innocent character either, but his backstory and his way of thinking is what made it hit so close to home. i used to be this way too when i was a kid and lived in an abusive household, and truly believed that they care about me no matter how much they hurt me. 

btd was the first thing in years that made me feel something. i found out that ur remaking the first game and i swore that no matter what happens i wont do anything bad to myself just so i could witness the release of ykmet and be able to play it. even if its not free, ill save up my money just so i could buy it then!! im already saving up so i could get a subscription on your patreon and it still wouldnt be enough to show how grateful i am. i missed that feeling so much, i missed having something to live for. i spend my last night drawing a bunch of ren sketches and even making an animation w him, it was really fun!! i look at him and he just makes me so happy u have no idea haha <3 all of that made me realize how much of an impact your games made on my life, even though u dont know me at all. i found out about your story and how you went through an awful betrayal from your close people a few years ago and it made me want to just say thank you. gato, you’re such a strong and wonderful person and i hope u know how much your hard work means to some people. a few months ago i was a terribly ruined 18 year old girl that wanted to leave this world so badly and things wouldn't have changed if it wasnt for you. i really wish i could talk to you at least for some time, though i understand that you probably wouldn’t want to and thats okay. i’m looking up to u a lot and i hope one day i’ll finally get better. u didn’t give up, so i won’t either!! ₍ᐢ.  ̫.ᐢ₎

thank u so much for everything gatobob. if u ever feel sad, just remember that u saved me, and im sure a thousands of other people by being here and sharing your content with the world. always keep going <3                          

                                                     -ellie 

I'm so glad you're still here with us!!! 

I know exactly what it feels like to have too many things go wrong, and to believe to your core that things will keep going wrong- that all there is in the future is pain. 

When the thought of killing myself was the only thing that made me feel better, I talked to people. I told the few people I trusted and I sought out a therapist as well. It didn't instantly fix everything of course but it showed me the path to recovery and helped me believe in a future where things are better.

I'm so glad you've talked to me today! You took a chance on communicating with someone and that's EXACTLY the right thing to do. Please keep taking chances. Go places with people, attend events- I know that taking chances after being hurt so badly is extremely hard, but if you keep checking the shore, you never know what the tide may bring in.

One last thing too- be your own friend if you can. For me, this took a lot of work and practice. I used to be abusive to myself in my own head. My therapist taught me to argue with myself in my head and challenge every mean thought. It was exhausting. But it gets easier if you keep doing it. Once you treat yourself like a friend, it's not so scary to be alone. Behind closed doors you can find love instead of fear.

Good luck Ellie, and I really hope you enjoy all of my next games :)

i really needed to hear something like this, thank u so much <3 i will try to communicate with other people because i guess that distancing myself from the outside world does no good either, and what you said about abusing yourself in your head- that’s really something i did and maybe still do and i think im just realizing it now that you mentioned it. reading what you wrote made me feel less alone and gave me some more hope, and i will use it in the right way. you’re such a nice person and i’ll continue supporting you and your work for as long as i can. ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა

and if you uhh.. ever want to check up the stuff i made with ren you can look up Alice Rou on youtube , im the one with 204k subs!! :’’) you obviously don’t have to if you don’t have much time, you must be busy enough so i totally understand. i’m just letting you know ^^

thank you a lot again. you made me incredibly happy today ❤️