Not awkward at all dont worry!
Relatability is always a huge focus with my games so I'm so glad you were able to get that from Micah! It genuinely makes me so happy that people are able to enjoy the characters that in depth (insert a sobbing emoji here that i cant find)
If youre curious about more:
Micah's fears are actually directly to him being trans and afraid of what the world was like, because all he's known has been the hatred and lack of information on it before the carnival, and then the carnival itself.
That said, I completely understand what you mean! Although mine is more mental illness than physical illness, that fear tends to always eat at you. <3