I stumbled on this page totally randomly and saw your comment. I just want to say best of luck to you! I hope your life gets better and your emotional health turns out great.
Definitely don't give up on therapy though, maybe switch doctors approaches. I have had really bad OCD since childhood and it took me like 4 different therapists to finally be able to deal with it better. I almost accepted that OCD would be part of my life forever but the last therapist kind of clicked for me. I think though that the previous 3 were part of the journey too and if I met this one from the start it would likely have not worked. So that is just some datapoint from my side.
Either way I hope life turns great for you!