I honestly understand what you mean. Finding media like this is always so bittersweet to me. I feel so connected to the characters and I can't stop thinking about it day and night. But at the same time, the pain. The pain is real, and the game gets it. It is extremely difficult to exist, for such a wide amount of different reasons, and we're all just doing our best to hold on and be something. I honestly wish you luck with your journey through life and I hope you will find your way into this mess. Nothing is lost, you're here. You got this. Whatever happens, you're here, making your way through things the best you can.