Wughh I teared up a little bit reading this, to be honest.
I've experienced my fair share of community collapses/closures over the years, but cohost has been an oddity in just how much people have been working to stay friends with each other. I find it deeply touching every time someone tries to push back against that "I'm probably bothering this person" gut reaction; makes it easier reaching out myself. (Though admittedly, one-on-one discord DMs don't really mesh comfortably with how I communicate wahahaa)
Inevitably there are going to be times when it just doesn't work out and people drift apart, but I hope that you can hold onto as many of your little seedlings as you can!! ;-;
Feels worth saying your color choices are beautiful as always. I loved the highlights and shadows of the leaves, in particular.
Funnily enough, I think I was repotting a plant right as you posted this last night...