Its unfortunate about the sprites I really loved them!!!
Oscar: Sometimes gentle nudges are what we need. Who says otters are the only slippery ones? Opps! or was it? XD Aww... Owch nice save! Owch! Hehehe! Indeed with first impression and a rep like that, its becomes hard to see one in a different way. Those teef... I have a few ideas... Just how I would like things, taking it slow.
Lucas: I like having routine, but it doesn't have to be perfect all the time. Teddy Bear! Nothing ever wrong with admitting it, but there is no need to broadcast it, not everyone needs to know. I admit that sounds like a lovely idea. That is a bit of the issue, sometimes flamboyance can come across as pushy or invasive because of the wording, BUT that tends to be more because others are not used to it. Like anyone, its the insinuations over something serious and trying to play it off as a joke but saying it like its nothing... that sort of mismatch is unsettling. Like it not even a light topic, its going for the worst possible scenario topic and phrasing. Instead of teasing it sounds more like bullying.... and THERE spiking doubts and fears over something that should not have been a concern!!! ugg... feels bad to point it out, but his is the concern I have over that too carefree attitude, the intent may not be malicious, but its the fact hat it still plants the seeds. And so fast too! It does not feel encouraging one bit! If one always tend to be joking how the hell are you supposed to tell when they are serious? The opposite also applies! arg!
This is why I like things to be kept more simple and casual and not free spirted to the point there are no boundaries. This is one of the reasons why I love Lucas. Get the chance to talk things out.
Well I been begging for awhile for a sprite for him... I am glad to know one is coming, he felt like an important enough one. The difference here is he is pointed but sensitive, he knows how to measure his words. And that here is it, its normal that people act differently form each other, it when you have someone who acts far beyond it or seemingly alien that there can be problems, you no longer know how to properly communicate or react, and results could be unpleasant, all form lack of understanding. It is sad, nor do I like feeling this way about it.
It does feel bad to feel watched, but here your not in a truly private space, so if you have nothing to hide, you will need to get over it. I still am and always curious about something new too, I've always been strange, but when there was something new I wanted to try to understand it. It doesn't always work out. One could say I'm frustrated with trying by now. That is behavior I resent and that doesn't belong as its not even an ounce of effort to understand things, violence without good reason..., but who says it can't be done the other way around too!? Gah! And who says violence has to be physical?
I don't feel like I'm worth much either! Got nothing to really show! I do like being honest and humble. I have to acknowledge that I do not have the full picture. I only but have a grasp at a broader canvas. I still am though alone in many ways.
Always frustrating how any sort of narrative can be twisted into something its not by far. Hugs... we all need them, but they need to be genuine too!
Jeez ease up girl! Choc! Honesty! Good friends keep you from being your worst enemy. Hard to put down a book. Guilt really messes you up, but to have no guilt is really messed up.
No there is nothing to be proud of for writing all of this, but it cuts deep to what I feel. I can't help noting that there do stand to be exceptions, as it all does not apply in all cases. Nothing is simple, but can't help but feel like we ignore the more obvious at times and try to explain away things like its nothing. No, no pride to be had.