I am enjoying our chat. If you wanna talk more, I’d be happy to connect over email or discord sometime.
I can relate to the organization you describe. I’m the same way. I don’t have the breadth of resources you do, though. I have lost stuff over the years, burnt out HDDs or stolen laptops, and rebuilt or refound portions but never all and kinda limped around until I started doing it myself again during COVID. This time, for whatever reason, it stuck. Coding has never stuck like that for me, but I’ve spent a lot of time trying to master that skill too. Not in the cards.
What’s funny about it is I have experience in pretty well every other aspect of game dev. Some of it professional. But I’ll never be a coder.