Reading you experience with unity, I can totally relate to how it feels trying to learn coding/scripting for the first time. Nothing makes sense and you feel totally dumb. This is totally normal!!! Don't get discouraged! You clearly have a lot of heart and that honestly the most important part (or so I hear.)
Excellent stream-of-consciousness devlog, very fun to read. Looking forward to where your journey to the top of the mountain goes next.