tw: venting

no one understands do they... they dont

no matter how much you say youve been throught what ive been through your lying..

say that to the mirror

maybe it will shatter.. imagine that glass... inpaling your skin..

i cant deal with it

i can deal with my emotions.. bottling them up makes me wanna vomit..

nothing helps..

nothing

i wanna walk into the distance

ill be that distance.. funny right...

i know im not ok... im not fine

why ingnore that fact..

no one asks..ive never herd a " are you ok"..

i dont think anyone noticed it..

i mean execpt for sarv.. they let me vent to them..

i can color code most of my emotions.. this one is faded blue..

blue= clue..

yet no one found it..

all my scribbles.. all my dark art...

sweet..

i wont really be the same like before.. 

sweet, kind, cheerful...

faded...

ive been ignored...

thinking thats its fine..

im starting to hate that word

disgrace of a word

yeah... thats all..