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Ok!

This one happened 2 years ago when i was straight as a ruler (now it's bendable ruler hehe)

There was a girl I love, lets name her Fiona (that's not her real name)

She was my girl best friend, everything is alright until I developed feelings for her

One day,in our classroom, our friends were bored and one of her friends suggested to play truth and dare (this game never end well) we use bottle and spin it around and then the bottle point in me and then you know it's always "who's your crush" and I was like "WHAAT!" and I was going to leave "oh you, NO CHICKENING OUT" (this reminds me Walter and Mr. Parker truth and dare😌) and they're chanting my name to tell my crush and I have no choice to tell them.

"ALRIGHT! Stop chanting my name" and here goes nothing "It was Fiona..." Everybody went silent and I see Fiona blushing A LOT! and I was blushing too, screaming inside.

Her friends were screaming and in my mind "OH GOD PLEASE SOMEONE KILL ME!!" and her friends teasing her "oh Fiona, you were so tired finding your soulmate yet here he is, in your front" Fiona spoke to me "What makes you like me M/N” (lets hide my name as M/N because my name is kinda unique if somebody search me in facebook I will the one will pop up first) I was SPEECHLESS because I was screaming inside lol, she just smile  and in my mind "OH I THINK I HAVE A CHANCE WITH HER" and I was so happy and then later on when we are going home, usually we walk together but now I'm just behind her 

My friends were mumbling and then they pushed me beside her and we made eye contact and we were blushing and I was dying inside and it was SO AWKWARD and I wanted to ran away HAHAHA

A lot things happened and we're going to fast forward when I have my family problems

Everything is working out, nothings wrong and then I have my family problem

I never seen my father cried in front of my siblings and I go to my room quietly when everything settles down I asked my Older sister I'm the youngest "Hey sis? Why father's crying" I asked, Oh? Father is crying, because me and our older brother were slacking of because of our relationships, Our older were spending too much time on her girlfriend and cant even take care of himself" and you? I asked "I rather not to say" she said

Eventually I found out that she was pregnant because her baby died in her womb. I was so shock and our mother said to me "What happened here stays here" she said because our relatives didn't know this.

There's the time that came to my mind that I should end my relationship to my GBF but I can't just say that to her so I chatted her one of her closest friend and said that I want her to say to Fiona That I will not court her for now because I have a big family problem and don't want her to be involved in our problem and her friend agreed because she understands my situation and the I received a message from Fiona "I get M/N I don't want to be a burden to you and I don't want to add to your family problem" she said " What!? You're not a burden Fiona, I just don't want you to be involved in our problem I'm sorry" I said 

Many weeks passed our family problem got eventually resolved and I want to return to Fiona and continue my courting to her

So I planned to surprise her in February 14, little did I know that I will be the one to be surprised in that day

Days of preparation to surprise her I got her roses and chocolate and then the big day comes

I was so excited grinning ear to ear, finding her

And my grin fade away when I see her hugging another man

I just stood there, watching them, I feel so numb, I feel so empty but i just give her the roses and chocolate greeting her "Happy Valentine's Fiona" I said it and walked away

I have learned my greatest lesson in my life that I should pursue anything and take risk

That's why i hate Valentine's 

When Valentine's happens all my bitter memories are returning to my head and I hate it.

This one is my best friend's fault 

I was so Pure back then

This one may sound unbelievable but trust me it's true

So, when I was 16, I was so innocent, that I didn't get to understand adult jokes, that I had no idea what is the self pleasure is, everything is fine when we're going home after class until my bsf starts to saying something weird which is not typical of him

"Hey M/N, how often do you do the nasty" he asked

"Huh? What do you mean 'the nasty?' " I said (God I was so naive back then🤦‍♂️)

"Don't tell me, you haven't done that?!" 

"Done what?" I said

Then he grabbed my crotch

"HEY! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU" I shouted to him

"Gosh M/N you're so naive!" (He's right though HAHA!)

Haaaaah I wish I could turn back time so I could go home earlier than him so I wouldn't lost my Innocence

"Every man do that! Are you gay?" He said

"What!? Of course not" I said (I was straight back then, I don't know what happened to me but I find male furries hot hehe, I don't like mens though, I think I'm only gay to furries hehe.) 

We stayed silent when we got in to our school service but my mind wouldn't shut up, I can't stop thinking about it, I'm so curious about that nasty thing and I had no idea how to do it, so I texted him.

"Hey, how do you do that nasty thing" I said

He looked at me, surprised, grinning ear to ear and I knew this is gonna be a mess.

When I got home, I went straight to my room, locked the door and did what he instructed

At first it was boring until something weird feeling

Something building up, with each stroke it feels good and good and then it reached my climax

And gosh I can't feel my legs!

Moments later, something weird feeling again but this it wasn't good and that's guilt, that's the first time I felt guilty and my bsf warned me that I could get addicted and I'm now addicted to it lol and I blame him for that

After resting for a while, I felt something sticky, it's so plenty that I need to change my clothes.

Later that day, when I arrived at my school, I saw my bsf sitting on the bench

"I bet you've done the nasty" he grined

"How was it?" He said

Then I told him everything

"And now you're not innocent" he said, laughing

Now I can't stop doing it, I noticed that after I'm done doing it I get sleepy and then I got the most wonderful idea, since I can't sleep properly, I'm not doing it for self pleasure anymore, I'm doing it to help me sleep and by doing that I don't feel guilty anymore so that's just fair. 

Little did I know that something was more bigger waiting for me that I will loose my entire innocence

There's more but I can't tell you that hehe