just finished wes' route. i dont think im in a place where i can really handle the message of this game and process it properly. fantasy is all i have, i dont have prospects and support like kieran. if i got that crown, i dont think it would be reasonable to expect me to give it up.
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I have 5 things to say
1) that title screen music is really perfectly fit, and also made me cry on boot up
2) i still feel Bad
3) [see below]
at least we get to be with him. at least we get to stay, for however long we do. at least we have something.
4) ced's next. tomorrow.
5) i wish remus could come with us, or we could find some other way to sustain peregrine. i feel like ive wronged him terribly. even if we stay behind together all but the castle is destroyed, all of that world he loves so much, gone. even those nice lesbians
also ive sobbed my throat raw and my eyes dry and i cried so hard i threw up and im nowhere near done. i dont know how remus can not hate us in his ending. i hope the door is still in the castle, maybe we can still get out together, in time, maybe when the end draws nearer. turns out "too much escapism is bad" as a motif doesnt work when the reader is in need of not just escapism, but escape entirely
of course, now that i think about it, maybe that's why it's in case of emergency.
the fantasy world cant be sustained because remus is using the crown wrong, one is meant to be only visiting, alongside a real life, escapism is a tool for coping with the real world, not a way out. if remus was living in the real world, he'd be experiencing new things to fuel the fantasies, and might not have this problem