Have you ever got bummed playing a game? Like things were so great in it, it made you question your own life?
I feel like I've wasted my life sometimes playing games like this. In Eternum things play out so great. Heartwarming scenes. Romance. Battles. But despite my best efforts my life has always been shit. Poverty and loveless. All I can say is that I worked hard to keep my parents out of an Old Folk Home and they know I love them. But I've never been good at being social. I never like drinking and parties and taking chances at a "live fast, die young" lifestyle. Now at 36, soon to be 37, I know my times is running out. And (un)like Nancy and the mother from OIAL, there's nothing I can do to feel young or revived again. Even other JRPGs and my job don't feel fulfilling. I just don't know what I can do to make my life feel like it was one worth living. I'm even trying to work out again so women will take notice of me. But they still never do. And I doubt I'll be writing novels or comics to pay the bills, so I'm stuck sticking with my warehouse job.
I've never been suave or cool. I'm just hardworking and dedicated and a man of my word. Integrity. But that means nothing to most people where I live. Or if it does it won't make women like me or men respect me. I'm just a plain joe in a crowd that is slightly overweight. But one thing I can promise is I will keep fighting to my deathbed for the hope that my life will at least end in a happier way. Maybe one day a women will love me and I will actually draw a piece of art that gets famous. I'll hold on to that and not give up.
And I suggest anyone who might be depressed like me, not give up either. It's not over until you're dead. I hope everyone gets love and respect in their lives. AND with that, I'm all caught up on Eternum and awaiting the next big update.