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I like anime art a ton. But the way Lust Age looks, looks a little dated. I like more of the art style of MurMur or even Eternum or non-ero games like Tales of Final Fantasy 9. I'm not against Lust Age as a game, but with all I have on my plate, and the time limit before tons of JRPGs come out at the end of the month and all the way to the start of November, I gotta pick sure-winners. I don't wanna spend days on a game, and I know I have 10 more AVN I still need to catch up on. I can likely try in November tho.

IDK if I'm official scarred. But it feels that way. Tons of bad events happened back to back from childhood till my mid-20s. I live in what was once a very bad neighborhood. The hood is always watching. Always trying to fuck someone over. But more than anything, I just don't like sex with violence mixed in. Or insults. Maybe if getting tied up and the girl sweet talked you after doing so and was super gentle and loving during, I could be into that. But the rougher and more selfish the acts, the more I hate them. Same for more filthy stuff. No urine, no scat. In terms of BDSM in media and 50 Shades, i think it is more about the author likes those thing as hardcore and painful as possible. An ultimate sub maso-fantasy. Not the more trusting way you speak of. But like I said, I would only be okay with it if no humiliation, or pain was involved. I want love-making to FEEL like love is there.

To be fair, in OIAL I never thought to myself, I hate this scene entirely. It would always be something in it. angle the dialogue took. Or a gimmick in the sex act that made it less fun. Less happy and loving. And more like someone was being used and discarded. Take Eternum's Maat for example. Visually she's the woman of my dreams. No question. And a sexually aggressive woman who makes it plain that she wants you? I wish I met someone like that IRL. Because even the most extroverted girls around my town play coy and backpedal once it's time to get romantic. But Maat is not all sultry dialogue and welcoming sex. She's a femme fatale that is luring you into a literal trap. So there's red flags all over the place. One, she tricked Nova and used her for fap fuel. Two, having sex with her mostly gives her what she wants. Three, liking her reflect badly one my own interests and morals if I admit I like a manipulative and selfish sexual predator. Not somewhere I want to go in my psyche. So I tried to leave and not have sex with her, but she just goes unpunished. Then when you do have sex with her, it's hate-fucking. Something I hate. And more odd, Nova got off on it. It sometimes feels like Nova wants to fuck everyone. But anyway, you use her body to get off, as "punishment". Then put her to sleep. Not much of a heroic act at all. So there was guilt the whole time. Who am I? What have I become? How am I any different from her? What am I doing liking this? If IRL this happened, would I be able to walk away? Am I controlled by my lust? How am I any different that panting lustful animal? You see what I'm talking about? Sex is likely great. But as a virgin who's only had a terrible blowjob once, I want real sex to be romantic, wholesome, tender, caring. I don't want power struggles and tricks. I don't wanna feel like I'm snake tricking people or a bull being a brute. I want to feel loved. And a lot of times, the more hardcore stuff doesn't feel like love. It feels like a bunch of animals got together and had an orgy or just humans being okay with depravity. I want two lover exploring each other's bodies and making each other feel good. Is that so wrong? Is that so boring?

As far as I'm aware, he said you will have options. To do a more hardcore act, a more vanilla act, or to turn down a girl without ruining the romance in the future. That's good enough for me if that plays out and doesn't get scrapped for time. And I do like kinks. I like older women calling me "good boy" or "sweetie" or other loving pet names. I like being patted by women I like. I like the idea of cuddling aftercare. I like the idea of kissing while cumming. I like women whispering in my ear. I like massages. And if it's done lovingly, I'm okay with women being on top in sex and talking dirty. I like fetishes and kinks. I just draw the line when it stops feeling like compassion is there. If there's no compassion and love, what else is it but mindless porn or a dirty guilty pleasure? I'm not into THAT. So far Eternum as delivered with good scenes to make you care about the cast. But that makes it even harder to accept them in some really dark or rough scenes. Especially if they themselves want things done to them that makes them seem like they don't love or respect themselves. Regular VNs might have romance, but I doubt they will be good comedy and mystery or even a single sex scene. I want to see sex, but I want to say "when" when I've had enough and the scene is going too far.

In Nothing is Forever, the BDSM scenes are mostly tied to Deb the exercise trainer. If you stick with her, the implication is that with more trust she will always escalate to more bondage and femdom stuff. But pain and humiliation is more Kim's bracket. She is the resident mean girl, who will cheat on people and be an asshole for the fun of it. She looks like Ada Wong from Resident Evil 2, 4, and 6.