Congratulations on your 1 year into game development and everything you achieved so far (it's still kind of wild to me that you've been doing this for only 1 year).
Keep enjoying the journey and the process of making the games you love!
We all dream of sharing our stories and seeing them loved by as many people as possible, and in itself it's a great thing if it gives us the drive to improve and keep making better games. But as you said, numbers are a fickle thing and they only hold the worth we want to give them. We are all moving forward at our own pace, and it's perfectly ok!
That's our privilege as indie devs, that we get to create something which is, first and foremost, purely for our own enjoyment ❤